Monday, July 1, 2013

One step closer

Finally, finally, finally! Finally, I had submitted my thesis for these PhD years. Oh, regardless the quality of the papers, I managed to write a thesis of 6 chapters, 120 pages without the references. At last, I have come to this point in this long journey. All my praise goes to You, almighty God!!!

Again and again I was brought back to the story of king Jehoshaphat when a vast army from Ammon, Moab, & Mt Seir marched against Jerusalem, the Lord told him to go on, march down against them and do not be discouraged because the battle belongs to God. Indeed He led the army of Judah, singing praises to the Lord along the way, and they found the vast army destroying each other and they return back to Jerusalem with their plunder.

Another verse that I clinged on to is Mark 5:36. Jesus told a synagogue ruler upon the news of his daughter's death, in  "Do not fret, just believe"
When it seems there is no hope, I shall not fear, just believe in His sovereignty.

Indeed, in a midst of the darkness, there was me with my weakness...
But the Lord has not forsaken me
He has seen my distress
He heard my silent cries
He has attended to my cause
He raised me up to walk on the dry desert
He has prepared the way for my rescue
What He has promised, He will bring it to pass
regardless my doubts and struggles, I am alive, not lacking anything!

I know that this is not the end yet, but I am glad, very glad, that I have the first draft for the very least. It is still a long way ahead, but I am one step closer to my dream of being a lecturer!
Now, I can start planning for a different chapter of life, without research! I want to gain experience in telecommunications industry, and I have asked myself again, should I stay in Melbourne or should I try to do this in Singapore? I am still not clear on this path...