Filled with the Holy Spirit!

The bible doesn't say that God is a philosophy of good works, it says that God is Spirit! And the only way we can truly worship Him is through the power of the Holy Spirit alone! [Joh 4:23]

The Holy Spirit is the one activating the living Words of God in our lives. The Holy Spirit gives wisdom to discern the will of God [1 Cor2:6-16] and without Him, we can't understand the mind of Christ. The Holy Spirit gives us power to become the witnesses for Christ. It was only through the Holy Spirit, there is supernatural transformation from within us where He dwells, and He counsels us of the righteousness and confidence in God Almighty <3<3 Therefore, Paul reminded the Galatians to 'live by the Spirit' as not to gratify the desire of the sinful nature [Gal 5:16]

Sometimes we feel that we have lost the presence of God, but it doesn't mean that the Holy Spirit has left us. He dwells within us deep inside us, but we might not realize that He is there because we have drifted away from Him over time, and do somethings that grieve Him...

But be rest assured that the Holy Spirit never leaves the children of God, we just need to stop drifting away and start reconciliation with Him. Start with confessing your sins to God and repent. Let your brother or sister know your struggle and pray for each another so that you may be healed [Jam5:16]
Amen =D

God's delay...

... is not God's denial

His faithfulness, I can't deny,
Again and again, I am reminded to trust Him and keep walking in faith. When my destiny seems so blur, when things are tough, my safe Refuge never fails me...

It seemed like my prayers weren't answered, or maybe I saw the current situation as the answer to it, which didn't turn out to be what I had been praying for. And it's such a vulnerable time for spiritual battle against the doubt and deceitful thoughts that satan would suggest to us. But the bible tells us that only through spiritual feeding of the Words and constant prayers and power of the Spirit can we stand firm on the solid rock and continue to hold on to our eternal hope, Jesus Christ, wonderful Savior.

As we wait on the Lord, we need to know that He is actually already working His way, and His way is not your way, human! As the Heavens are higher than the earth, so are His ways higher than our ways, and His thoughts than our thoughts.

We need to understand that His timing is perfect, and He is much more interested in the internal transformation of our hearts then any worldly matters that we might be occupied with. His Holy Spirit is doing something within us, if only we would pay attention, we'll know He is not idle. The puzzle of humanity is really fragile, & God is working His way wisely to put things right, and we just want to see the whole picture sometimes and when we don't see it, we get anxious...

"When God, when?"

If He chooses not to reveal it to us, we shouldn't get depressed; continue to trust Him. After all, everything is for His glory... If Your motivation is righteous, He will surely give what you ask for, or even more. Just one thing He asked of us, that is to spend more time with Him and get to know who He really is.

"Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you."
[Jer 29:12-14]

Wow, third year!

There goes my two years of PhD in Swinburne, with academic publication = zero... That's such a shame! I wished I’d accomplished much more than this, and the truth that my progress is not satisfying is a pressure in a way. I am kinda bounded by this fear of failure, and i am not supposed to!

We went into the topic of discipleship and one of the ways too grow in faith is to keep prayer diary to jot down the prayers, so we recognize them when we see how they are answered...

Hmm any prayer answered? Let’s see… Last week I somewhat see I have begun to see my own system instead of just 'Huang's model', which is a good thing, but on the other side, i am still so far behind and don't really catch up much. Am i not being grateful or Am i being worried, or Am i just being pressured? I know that this is really a time of training in patience, endurance, perseverance, faith, and surrender.

Jesus said that whoever wants to be His disciple must take up the cross and follow Him. What he meant by taking up the cross is to die to self, be born new, & hidden in Christ, holding on solely to the hope of salvation.

Think about it, I have been depressed by thinking of the failure that I might face, and that’s simply because of my pride and worry for my future… I had beem motivated by the negative thoughts of not being able to publish papers! That is not a healthy motivation, certainly not to God’s glory. That affects the way I see things, and the center of that thought is pretty much myself. I am not taking up my cross daily as how I should...

The course of discipleship teaches us to be faithful, be hardworking, be strong, be selfless~
Thank God that the Holy Spirit is always there to convict me when something is wrong.

Relationships uncensored

God has been pointing these issues to me quite frequently lately: "relationship", and in particular, relationship -> marriage

I can't remember when the first poke happened, and what it was exactly, but it became more intense gradually. Things like friends falling in love & hearing love stories; then i found myself watching chickflicks like bridewars & wedding planner. this topic leaps its way to my brain, without me realizing it, to a point that I can't help but to acknowledge: Yes, it's gonna come to me one, ONE DAY!

Of course i want to get married, when i find the right one. But I don't want to think further than this, not until we touched on 'romantic relationship' in house meeting recently & relationship conference the week after that. How do you know that person is not right unless you give it a chance? It's funny how many people talked to me how relationships gave valuable lessons even though it didn't lead to marriage...

Hang on there, why do You throw these things on me now?
I have PhD to think about and I think it's already a tough one.
As much as I'd love to be in a relationship I might not be able to handle both at the same time, I am suggesting to put it on hold, yes God? But sure, nothing to lose to listen to relationship advise since I will be in a relationship ONE DAY. And through all these that happened along the topic of relationship, I got a chance to look carefully into this issue & so prepare me to face my fears and take the lead =D Thank You for being so patient with me <3