11-11-11 11:11

o, happy day, Happy Day~~, it's 11/11/11 !!! So what, it's just another day dated 11/11/11.
More importantly though, I wonder how it's come to November! What have I done in my year of 2011?
One year left, and i still haven't had any publication... How am I gonna finish my thesis..

Day after day seemed to pass so slowly yet it's already November now.
God.. o God, You're gonna lead me through the next year to publish a thesis, will You not?
Please renew my strength and my joy, to walk and not be faint...
Please keep my heart pure, and remind me each day to see the big picture, be patient and keep working.
that I may stay within Your grace to be the light in this dark tunnel!!

happy 11-11-11 11:11 =D

Invisible walls around me

People say I am friendly, and because of that, well-known in the surrounding area or colleagues... but truth be told, I don't think I have many friends with whom I can just be myself with.. It's like I am always aware of my surrounding and there is like an invisible wall that prevents me from going closer to them.

This is something that I've been struggling with, fear of betrayal or abandonment makes me extra careful in making friends. I choose not to share much of myself unless I know that they show interest in myself as a personal being, not just what I am capable of doing or because I am nice, or I make them have fun, really.

It's just my nature to be careful with my feelings. I have grown up being taught not to trust people, because it's not a safe place out there. But over the years I have learnt that I learnt that God can mend a broken heart, I just need to let Him do His work, don't get in the way or reject Him.

I realized just lately since I lived in the girls house, I could finally see that walls around me. I subconsiously confine my feelings deep within me because I don't think thaey will be able to realte to it... Many many times during the time of sharing I was challenged to just be honest about what I think and how I feel about things... And it feels like I had to make an extra effort to let them see my true self.

It's not like I've never been hurt, as the matter of fact it was because I couldn't open up my heart, the loneliness is building up even when I am not alone, and I realize that it's simply because I haven't really been my true self and being to some of them and God's been nudging me to do so and break the walls.

I like what I found in a website called Jesus Crash:: Seeking the Sacred through real life encounters.

It says...
"We live in an unsafe world. As a result we set up walls to protect our hearts. However, real connection occurs at the heart level. Unless we break down those walls, we will only continue to survive when we were truly meant to thrive. A Heart that is surviving, fights against the world, protecting itself from getting hurt again. A heart that thrives is one that joins with others, and through such connection is built up, grows, helps others to grow, and experiences life that can only occur in true heart-level community. Break through the walls to your heart and truly live."

Not easy, but with His persistent and gentle reminder again and again, I will slowly but surely breakthrough this, just be myself even when I am out of the comfort zone, even with people that I can't really relate to =]

Messy house

"I am not inviting any guests into my house! It is so messy, not a pleasant view for hosting anyone, nobody is gonna enjoy the visit to a dirty place. Plus, it's gonna ruin my reputation if anyone sees this and tells this around." How many of us ever have this thought before?

Is this, possibly, one of the reasons why some people don't want to have God in their lives? I think some of us do realize that our lifestyles are not pleasant in His sight, and we do not want to change, for whatever reasons...(for example maybe we love the parties but hate cleaning up the rubbish, leave them until it's too much to clean and we don't know where to start anymore)

Surely, when God actually knocks at our doors, we have the choice to make, either to:
1. Ignore Him and keep 'hiding' the mess (as if He wouldn't know! but He knows) or,
2. Answer Him, confessing our mess & let Him have a thorough look on the mess so that He can help us with the cleaning

But here is the thing, when we open the door and invite Him into our house, we've gotta know that we need to be prepared to clean our house so that it will be pleasing for His dwelling! Ouch, that's alot of things to do....

But don't worry, He's not gonna let you do it alone. He will tell you how to do it,  where to start, & provide you with the resources needed to change the broken furnitures, bad sound radio, rusty pots, leaking roof, etc etc, that you know will cause more damage if you leave them be...

It's a real good deal, I tell you, you'd love the outcome: a new, clean, healthy, and peaceful house, who doesn't want it?
So, why don't we stop ignoring Him, start praying for His grace to come into our heart and start the cleaning process to create a pure heart, like how He meant it to be.

Like King David prayed [Psalm 51]

"Have mercy on me, O God, according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion, blot out my transgressions."
"Create in me a pure heart, o God, ... & grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me."

Vanilla ice cream!

I remember there was a guest speaker coming to FGT to teach in SOTB back in 2010 and he was saying that God is not the kind of dictator who doesn't care about the workers... No, God cares about His servants' interest, even though it might not directly related to the house benefit.

God the Father is loving, like an earthly father who loves & cares for his children. And if the child, who has been behaving well and pleasing to his eyes, asks for some ice cream, will the father refuses him/her? I think he ought to, if the son/daughter has ice cream everyday =p but if it's just once in a while, it will cause no harm, and so why not? He wants his son/daughter to be happy and it's a safe thing to do.

And the preacher went on telling his story of how he desired a huge motorbike, yet he hasn't got the chance to get one because even though he really wants it, he's put his priority based on the benefit to his household and his service to God. He did pray about his desire for a huge motorbike though! Once he had enough money to get a decent one, but he had to let it slips away for something else urgent. But lo & behold, at the end he still got the motorbike, better than the one he planned to get, to his surprise! He was amazed that God would grant his wish, eventhough it's not related to his ministry, and so he was convinced of what a loving King, as told in the bible, whom he serves..

That time I had 3 things in my mind that I really want. Now that i think of them, 1 of them had been granted! I thought it was impossible, but yeah I got it, my choc-mint; I actually came back to Oz! And it's been another journey, through many seasons I stumbled and got up. I'll keep walking and learning, maybe sometimes I'll dance, sometimes I'll crawl, sometimes I'll rest but because of His grace, I will not turn back, I will move forward =D

And the rest of them... God knows that one of the two is a struggle to me, & I am still praying for it, and that is my current desire aside from he Kingdom. When can i have this particular vanilla ice cream? lo & behold!

Deeper Love

"Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect."

Rom 12:2

I am sure many of us, Christians, at one point of our walks with God ever asked this question: "How do i know what God wants me to do?" There is no specific technical procedure of getting 'there' but intimacy is the what we'd need to have to unlock that divine understanding.

This is just a sharing of what I've got from ignite and also daily bread devotional that i read at the same night. As the year was nearing to an end, Ps Dave encouraged the young people to seek God, and lay down our burdens before Him, and clean the slate to welcome the new year with joy and hope for the better before the perfection. It's as simply as just come before Him just as you are at cross of Christ, to seek not His 'hands' but His 'face'.

How many of us have been so busy lately that we haven't got time to have quiet time in our rooms and try to listen to His voice speaking to us, to just feel His presence, knowing who He is as He has revealed to us through the holy book; He is almighty yet loving. This time when our mind is renewed by His Words with the help of Holy Spirit's intercession, results in a sense of intimacy with the holy and living God!

When was the last time you were overwhelmed with love and grace?
When was the last time you came to Him and traded your sorrows with joy?
Remember how He had comforted you when you were in distress, when nothing seemed to be right?

You know what, He is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. He wants you to come back to that sacred place only you and Him when you have your sense of security 'in Christ alone'.
When you have that peace that transcends knowledge and understanding, you'll be able to discern Him speaking to you, His Words become alive in you, and your heart's desire will be stirred up to obey Him out of love.

Jesus Himself did say,"If you love me, keep my commandments."

And I like what Oswald Chambers wrote: If my relationship to Him is that of love, I will do what He says..."and if I hesitate, it is because I love someone else I have placed in competition with Him, namely, myself.”
It is so true. When we obey His commands even though it's the opposite of our flesh desire,or seems ridiculous from this world's point of view, we exercise love and have faith in Him more than we do in ourselves.

This is why it's only make sense that we will be more willing to obey Him when we have intimate relationship with Him and know that He is God. We may have more faith in Him and we will step out of the comfort zone to follow His guidance, knowing that He is with us and He is watching over us. You will treat the pain differently, because you simply do it out of love not obligation. And along the way, you will be transformed, without even realizing that you are in the process. Because that is His ultimate goal of our lives, to be transformed into the image of His son, Jesus Christ, who is also a reflection of God Himself.

=)

Swiny open day

This year, we again need to help in Swinburne open day & again, am responsible for the robot arm demo...

Unfortunately, we didn't keep the program from last year so FS used a student project on that day, which was detecting objects at random position & move them to desired positions, which was quite cool, but it was not really accurate + it didn't run forever. When Man saw it, he wasn't happy that the robot stopped moving! So, we had to make it move non-stop... hmm put it in a loop, but tricky part of it is that it picks and drops... So how can we do this?

An idea just poped up in my head, do a triangle! & so I wrote the program just to do so, as recorded in the video; Now, at least it's moving non-stop ^^

BANG! the bullet

BANG! is a board game for 3-8 players. We play this game quite often & we ♥ it. FYI, it's not a simple game, but once u've learnt how to play, it's fun^^ BANG!'s its own blog too, check it out: "BANG! card game blog"

5 player roles: +1 Sheriff +1 renegade +1 deputy +2 outlaws Matt - Sid Ketchum as the Sheriff & the rest random roles are played by: Steven - Pedro Ramirez Aiji - Molly Stark Eddi - Pixie Pete Lynn - Jose Delgado

The longest one I played so far, even after 'a fistful of card' is in effect, Matt(sheriff), Lynn, & Aiji were still in play for few rounds! It lasted that long because the sheriff didn't know which of them was the vice (apparently the renegade disguised himself well). The 2 outlaws were quite obvious, & they were killed at about the middle of the game. Then it was war between deputy & renegade with sherriff trying to speed up the murder & build up good hand at the same time =p

It seemed endless coz Molly Stark kept getting a missed card & Jose Delgado kept trading 2 blue cards with 4 new cards and attacked me. Plus, whenever the sheriff shot Lynn, her barrel in front of her worked! (Matt was somewhat convinced that Aiji was deputy ~Teehee~~) Only after I played cat balou on the barrel it was easier to take her down, and yes she died, and the identities were revealed... Lynn was the Deputy ^o^

But even after losing the vice, The sherrif was still strong; his ability allowed him to trade 2 cards for a life point, so he was still strong even after he was hit by Russian Roulette, + he's got a volcanic! So, unlike Molly n Jose, he wasn't hurt from the 'fistful of card' + he got to draw 2cards at the beginning of his turn, which were both 'BANG!' and that's how he killed the renegade!

Finaly, game over!

Store up treasure in Heaven

where no thief  breaks in & no moth destroys

Half way through DEEPER, I am almost like a social outcast without facebook! Man, I would normally surf FB every now and then, but what do I do now? ~C'mon, gal, fill it up with something else~~ That's the whole point of fasting from FB anyway, to use my time to seek more of God =v= oh yeah, what can i read or hear that can give me more revelation of God?

There are plenty resources I can choose from, to regularly meditate on:

1. the gospel of John, a chapter a day; It's full of Jesus' teaching while He was still on Earth.

2. daily SOAP journal email from church in the season of DEEPER

3. heartlight.org today's devotional

Yet, today I meditated on "American Dream" by casting Crown, which led me to this literature.

The most wise and wealthy king of Israel, king Solomon, who wrote the book of Proverbs, also wrote a journal on the meaning of life, as recorded in the book of Ecclesiastes:

I, the teacher, was king over Israel in Jerusalem.I applied my mind to study and to explore by wisdom all that is done under the heavens.
What a heavy burden God has laid on mankind! I have seen all the things that are done under the sun; all of them are meaningless, a chasing after the wind.
[Ecc 1:12-14]

I said to myself, “Come now, I will test you with pleasure to find out what is good.”

But that also proved to be meaningless. [Ecc 2]

The king said, "A person can do nothing better than to find satisfaction in their own toil."

Yet he also said, "When I surveyed all that my hands had done and what I had toiled to achieve, everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind"

I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil. This is the gift of God, for without Him, who can eat or find enjoyment?

And I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that people will fear him."

The wise king concluded: Now all has been heard, here is the conclusion of the matter: 
[Ecc 12]

"Fear God and keep His commandments, for this is the duty of all mankind."

"For God will bring every deed into judgment,

including every hidden thing, whether it is good or evil."

[also in Ecc 3:17] “God will bring into judgment both the righteous and the wicked, for there will be a time for every activity, a time to judge every deed.”

Most importantly, Jesus said,"What good is it if anyone gains the whole world yet loses his soul to eternal death?"

So, dear Lord, let Your Spirit keep reminding me on what really matters in this life, what lasts forever, & help me to focus more on them as it pleases You. Amen. 

God is watching over me

Words are not enough to describe His everlasting kindness and patience to me. I am truly grateful that His blessings are not just in the huge supernatural miracles, but they also include everyday matters. What will be of me if He doesn't look after me? Thank You for protecting me from unnecessary expense today, my God, my Jehovah Jireh! 

I shared this now because it happened that I just realized that I had left a library loan laptop in George building last Friday, I actually forgot about that laptop! I just didn't pay much attention because I didn't need it >.< How reckless I was... 

Let's see, if the man who found it didn't return it to library... I had to pay the penalty and it's gonna be about AUD1000 I think.. God, I really thank You for sparing me from the distress, and thank you for this gentle reminder to be MORE ALERT next time!!!! And yes, I believe that Your timing is perfect, so please help me to be more patient and pay more attention to Your gentle whisper. ]

Love You Jesus <3 Hallelujah

Filled with the Holy Spirit!

The bible doesn't say that God is a philosophy of good works, it says that God is Spirit! And the only way we can truly worship Him is through the power of the Holy Spirit alone! [Joh 4:23]

The Holy Spirit is the one activating the living Words of God in our lives. The Holy Spirit gives wisdom to discern the will of God [1 Cor2:6-16] and without Him, we can't understand the mind of Christ. The Holy Spirit gives us power to become the witnesses for Christ. It was only through the Holy Spirit, there is supernatural transformation from within us where He dwells, and He counsels us of the righteousness and confidence in God Almighty <3<3 Therefore, Paul reminded the Galatians to 'live by the Spirit' as not to gratify the desire of the sinful nature [Gal 5:16]

Sometimes we feel that we have lost the presence of God, but it doesn't mean that the Holy Spirit has left us. He dwells within us deep inside us, but we might not realize that He is there because we have drifted away from Him over time, and do somethings that grieve Him...

But be rest assured that the Holy Spirit never leaves the children of God, we just need to stop drifting away and start reconciliation with Him. Start with confessing your sins to God and repent. Let your brother or sister know your struggle and pray for each another so that you may be healed [Jam5:16]
Amen =D

God's delay...

... is not God's denial

His faithfulness, I can't deny,
Again and again, I am reminded to trust Him and keep walking in faith. When my destiny seems so blur, when things are tough, my safe Refuge never fails me...

It seemed like my prayers weren't answered, or maybe I saw the current situation as the answer to it, which didn't turn out to be what I had been praying for. And it's such a vulnerable time for spiritual battle against the doubt and deceitful thoughts that satan would suggest to us. But the bible tells us that only through spiritual feeding of the Words and constant prayers and power of the Spirit can we stand firm on the solid rock and continue to hold on to our eternal hope, Jesus Christ, wonderful Savior.

As we wait on the Lord, we need to know that He is actually already working His way, and His way is not your way, human! As the Heavens are higher than the earth, so are His ways higher than our ways, and His thoughts than our thoughts.

We need to understand that His timing is perfect, and He is much more interested in the internal transformation of our hearts then any worldly matters that we might be occupied with. His Holy Spirit is doing something within us, if only we would pay attention, we'll know He is not idle. The puzzle of humanity is really fragile, & God is working His way wisely to put things right, and we just want to see the whole picture sometimes and when we don't see it, we get anxious...

"When God, when?"

If He chooses not to reveal it to us, we shouldn't get depressed; continue to trust Him. After all, everything is for His glory... If Your motivation is righteous, He will surely give what you ask for, or even more. Just one thing He asked of us, that is to spend more time with Him and get to know who He really is.

"Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you."
[Jer 29:12-14]

Wow, third year!

There goes my two years of PhD in Swinburne, with academic publication = zero... That's such a shame! I wished I’d accomplished much more than this, and the truth that my progress is not satisfying is a pressure in a way. I am kinda bounded by this fear of failure, and i am not supposed to!

We went into the topic of discipleship and one of the ways too grow in faith is to keep prayer diary to jot down the prayers, so we recognize them when we see how they are answered...

Hmm any prayer answered? Let’s see… Last week I somewhat see I have begun to see my own system instead of just 'Huang's model', which is a good thing, but on the other side, i am still so far behind and don't really catch up much. Am i not being grateful or Am i being worried, or Am i just being pressured? I know that this is really a time of training in patience, endurance, perseverance, faith, and surrender.

Jesus said that whoever wants to be His disciple must take up the cross and follow Him. What he meant by taking up the cross is to die to self, be born new, & hidden in Christ, holding on solely to the hope of salvation.

Think about it, I have been depressed by thinking of the failure that I might face, and that’s simply because of my pride and worry for my future… I had beem motivated by the negative thoughts of not being able to publish papers! That is not a healthy motivation, certainly not to God’s glory. That affects the way I see things, and the center of that thought is pretty much myself. I am not taking up my cross daily as how I should...

The course of discipleship teaches us to be faithful, be hardworking, be strong, be selfless~
Thank God that the Holy Spirit is always there to convict me when something is wrong.

Relationships uncensored

God has been pointing these issues to me quite frequently lately: "relationship", and in particular, relationship -> marriage

I can't remember when the first poke happened, and what it was exactly, but it became more intense gradually. Things like friends falling in love & hearing love stories; then i found myself watching chickflicks like bridewars & wedding planner. this topic leaps its way to my brain, without me realizing it, to a point that I can't help but to acknowledge: Yes, it's gonna come to me one, ONE DAY!

Of course i want to get married, when i find the right one. But I don't want to think further than this, not until we touched on 'romantic relationship' in house meeting recently & relationship conference the week after that. How do you know that person is not right unless you give it a chance? It's funny how many people talked to me how relationships gave valuable lessons even though it didn't lead to marriage...

Hang on there, why do You throw these things on me now?
I have PhD to think about and I think it's already a tough one.
As much as I'd love to be in a relationship I might not be able to handle both at the same time, I am suggesting to put it on hold, yes God? But sure, nothing to lose to listen to relationship advise since I will be in a relationship ONE DAY. And through all these that happened along the topic of relationship, I got a chance to look carefully into this issue & so prepare me to face my fears and take the lead =D Thank You for being so patient with me <3

Prayers [Eph3:20-21]

"To Him who is able to do exceedingly and abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever."

I can't imagine how 'exceedingly abundantly' is what you have in store for me. I know how high Your way is more that what I can't think of, Your plan is more that i can anticipate but I look forward to all you have ahead for me in the future. Please, help me to not get in the way of anything you want to do in me and through me.When I work but it seems not going anywhere and not bearing fruit, remind me that You are the source of all productivity. So please, make every barren area in my life to be fruitful. And let praise comes out of me even when I doubted that You, because only through Your Spirit i can break forth into the purpose for which You have called me.

~by Stormie Omartian

"Sing o barren, you who have not borne! Break forth into singing and cry aloud, you who have not labored with child! For more are the children of the desolate than the children of the married woman," says the Lord. [Isa54:1]

Hillsong//ONE DAY "You"

~Hillsong team was rocking Melbourne for just a day with Hillsong United leading the worship session in the evening~ The day session has more teaching and the evening is more worship, it was fun, but what have i brought home?

I have learnt what they preached in the same area, but on that week I was struggling with PhD study. The issue of keep going, work hard, because there is no short cut~~ It's true, but what is that for? Is it worth the work and stress at all?

Well, i have to go back the the reason why I chose PhD at the first place. It's not for fame, partly it was Melb, partly bcoz it was offered, but what really contributed to my decision? It was the dream that I had about teaching the students... It was you I wanted to obey; God it is you =D  This is my fav song that night: YOU

Sweet Treatment for ~~

~depressive disorder in early stage!

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." [Phil 4:6-7]

Indeed, God provided me in time of need, a loving house & ... 

...cupcakes!  Look^^ How cute are they?

But it wasn't just the cupcakes but it's the love brought with them that did the treat. I am so blessed to be put in this place just at the right time I need a home. =]

Was it the stress from study, was it emotional swing from social life at such wrong timing, wast it the food poisoning, or they all summed up together, i am not sure, but it was the worst week i ever had so far this year. Being sick, whether it's because of depression or just body's immunity down, made it even worse... I could say that it was a really depressing week with lots of tears, anxiety, fears & medicine...

Not that it was totally different this week, but I felt much better in terms of physical health and less emotional stress, because I have received plenty of love from the ladies, Charli, Maddy, Naomi, Rowan, Alison, Elsa, Georgina. I am so so thankful for having them around at such the time, taking good care of me & telling me that i am not alone... Also Ina&Alicia, they comforted me when i felt so lonely and helpless, and I know they feel lonely too at times. I am so grateful to have a shelter in depressing time =)

I could let go of my disappointment and fears and gained more courage to keep going because of you ladies! Special thanks to you and to God who's put me in this house. I love being here because Christ lives in here through the individuals. =)

'silence' from Heaven?

Ps.Dav was preaching from Mat 15:21-28, how the Canaanite woman kept begging Jesus despites His harsh reply, and because of her humble attitude and faith to receive, Jesus granted her wish. How she wasn't offended by Jesus looking at her as having same position as dogs, as it were.

Still she persevered without getting offended, how humble she was before Him?
Firstly, she acknowledged Jesus as Lord, she didn't go around to the paranormals but Jesus, knowing that Jesus IS ABLE to help her, and then... she acknowledged that she didn't deserve what she's begging for, but still she persevered, relying fully on His grace, thinking surely nothing is too big for Jesus, there will still be leftover for the undeserving... 

How are we compared to this woman?

 * Sometimes we think that we need to be perfect in order to get help from God

 * Sometimes we treat God as wish granter, i'm gonna pray and get it coz I deserve it!

 * Sometimes we think of our problem as the biggest thing in the world, we actually forget that God is bigger!  

 * Other times, we pray and hope that God will approve it, otherwise we console ourselves by thinking "So this is not for me after all."

At times when God seems to be silent, for goodness sake, how do you react to it? Do you keep staying in tune with Him, or you walk away from Him? How far are you gonna 'bug' Him in prayers shows much do you want what you're praying for... Look at that Canaanite woman, seemed so desperate, didn't she? How desperate are you for breakthrough, and how faithful are you in worshiping Him at the time of need?

God is not a genie nor a human pleaser

I was so tired of trying hard and keep not getting it! Do i really have what it takes to be a researcher? I am just mentally tired and Jesus, i really do need rest for my soul, i know i haven't been walking with you as much lately, and i am exhausted of trying on my own, just forgive me and talk to me, please?

@God: I am reaching church in 10 minutes, seeking Your peace and rest for my soul, so do answer me, will you? (as if He's obliged to do so?)
When the musicians play the worship songs, it just came to me that I had been treating God as this Powerful Spirit that can grant all my wish and make my life easier...

Let me ask you now, who is serving who?
 <> Have I really spent time with Him more than just the uttering of my needs? He is not any genie in the lamp or some wish granter lower than human being, so why would He respond to such a selfish wish of yours, lady?
 <> Have you been pleasing to Him at all, or you have gone away from Him to please your own flesh? You know what is going on there~~
Yeah, i know, i am sorry Lord , here i am *guilty*. Will you... take me back, by grace?

Really, all He requires is just me spending some quality time to know more of Him and i have neglected it, again and again. I can understand if He gets frustrated with me, and yet, His love endures forever?

some news to follow at http://au.christiantoday.com/ =p

T.D. Jakes in the Hollywood! I love T.D Jakes for his funny jokes and real story and his passion for outreach, but i never knew he is into movie! Wow, a real pastor in Hollywood movie? I am so gonna watch this movie: Jumping the Broom XD

Justin Bieber: Never Say Never  gives me some encouragement to breakthrough of fear of rejections. Sometimes i just don't want to tell how awesome Jesus is, coz i don't want to be thought as a weirdo. Most of the time i don't care but in some cases, i still do care, which is the times when i feel God is so distant, I just can't feel His presence, as if i am going on my own here... and so i was not convicted on His truth and started to seek acceptance from others so then i don't want to speak of which they are not likely to favor. 

I found Adjustment Bureau presenting an interesting issue in the movie, freewill vs destiny. The movie somehow tries to convey the message that man determines his own fate, nothing is fixed... It brings the small tiny point of the theology in there, really.

1. Surely God does know the best plan for each of us because He creates us, but He will not neglect our feelings about things. Falling in love with the wrong person? How do we even know she/he is wrong if we don't give it a try, unless it's obvious that he/she is drawing us away from God. He will let us try it out, until the day He says enough is enough.
2. The guy doesn't know the chairman, least likely that he likes him.
Christians love Jesus because He first loved us. That changes the whole perspective of CHAIRMAN'S PLAN vs HUMAN PLAN. We don't simply give up something for a plan that this stranger sets for us but if we know Him as a Father to us, our love for Him will soften our hearts to trust Him, who makes no mistake, unlike our earthly fathers.

But i like it how he was so desperate that he decided to find the chairman & convince him that he's decided whom he wants to be with, and he sacrificed everything for that, he went all the way for what he thought was true, and so the chairman granted his wish, only after he fought for it with everything he's got =] Sometimes God does do this to teach us to fight and not take things for granted. "Is it kinda a test?" You can say it's sort of it~ But we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to his purpose. [Rom 8:28] If you know Jesus, Emmanuel, you'll know this =)